Long time, no see...

Well, I finally FOUND my blog again! I don't know what happened but I couldn't remember where it was and there were no links to it anywhere....lol

But I am back now..teehee!

Since the last post, I had a beautiful baby boy, Thanksgiving and Christmas have come and went already and New Years is in another few days. Craziness. And my babies are growing up TOO FAST. My baby girl is going to be 2 in a few days. That makes me sad. So very sad. I seems like yesterday I was pregnant with her, never mind that Ethan is almost 5 months old.

I am getting old. Wow.

Someday, and soon, this baby laying next to me grabbing his toes will be getting married and looking at his own baby. Wow.

I started taking some Zoloft. I think it helps even me out a bit. I still feel, but no high highs or low lows. It's a good thing, I think. It is making me think about the present more though. Which kind of scares me since I can't think about death without going into a panic.

I profess to be Wiccan. I believe in the Goddess and the God, male and female counterparts that watch over us. Where this leaves me for an afterlife kind of eludes me. I believe in the cyclical, that we have several lives. But it still scares me. Of course. Things are different now, but I don't fear losing my kids or husband any less. I just need to put my beliefs in my heart and know that no matter what happens, we will find each other again.

I am tired now, so I am going to head off to bed. I wish you pleasant dreams.

~Pensive Mama